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Monday, July 7, 2008 

talking 'bout MY LIFE!!!

i had a simple conversation with mama and papa the other day, it was a very ordinary chit chat that eventually led them asking me, what are my plans for myself. am i contented staying at home doing nothing?! well, i jokingly answered them back, i only want to work outside davao, probably manila or cebu! haha.. it was a joke, but jokes are half meant or in my case, 75% meant! lol!! actually early this june i already made my attempt to ask them if i can work outside davao, but as expected, they refuse giving such lame reasons! well, i understand, i know there's a deeper reason why they won't allow me, the reasons they gave me were just excuses! i can read between the lines ma! im not that slow-minded! haha.. touch naman ako! by the way, admittedly, i reach the point of this some kinda "eagerness" to be independent that's why i want to work outside davao.. i really am eager and willing to start a new life by myself, i want to become independent and i know i need to! i want to get out of my comfort zone and i always think staying here in davao won't give me that chance! i want to know how far can i go and how long can i stand by myself! you may think i exaggerated the term "independent-living" but that's what i really want! but since my attempts of asking permission all failed, i didn't apply for any job here in davao even though a lot of chances and opportunities are knocking, i ignore it all! those text messages, phone calls, job offered/introduced by some relatives and family friends -- i ignore it all!! that's how i indirectly rebelled! lol! anyway enough for that thing, im over it, and im back with my clear mind! what's funny now is i still don't have any plan to look for a job even if i already accepted the fact of me staying forever here in this &?#@ city! you know what?! i want to study social issues, don't know what the course is but something about social works and learn all societal issues including poverty, ethical and legal issues concerning our community nowadays.. i have the heart and mind to study it again.. and so i jokingly asked mama if i could take that course, as expected, she laughed then asked me where did i get that idea, that funny idea! she thought im joking.. well yeah, im joking but then again 75% meant! hahaha.. i dont know what now, i dont know what's next in this boring life of mine! but another thing, i reflected on this and really made time to think it over for 3 days and nights i guess, i am actually asking myself, what i really want since my entire life, i really don't have any direction, im a very confused person, promise! well, anyway, so far as my mind works this way, i realized this thing, actually i didn't wish to have a job though i'm aware i dont have money, i'm not rich and so i need to work to earn but i dont know, i just dont feel like working, it never seriously slipped in my mind.. what's all in my mind now is i want to make changes in my life through helping those in need.. how i wish i could touch everyone's life in a positive way and leave a footprint on society before my life will fade away.. i was really inspired by Albert Einstein's words: try not to wish to become a man of success but rather wish to become a man of value in the society.. i may sound funny but its true! im not dreaming too much of success and money, all i know is there are people in need.. im starting not to think of myself but rather think of the people who needs more than i do! having live my life comfortably as the way i do is already a great blessing! don't you think a funny clown is talking now?! haha..
hahai.. i dont know if i should laugh at myself thinking this way, but God, that's just how simple my mind works and that's what i want.. do i need somebody to knock my head off and be awake of the reality and realize how important job and money are?! if so, just tell me, i'll stand in front of you so you can knock my poor head off!!

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WOW.. amazing-ness dai. you enlightened me with the eistein-chuva-whoever saying huh hahaha..

dai? is dat chu owber der? hihihihi..

anyway, the best advice i can think of right now regarding your situation is to open your mind. think of other chances or positive outcomes if you stay here. do not close your mind up to the idea of having your first job in davao because we'll never know our parents will let you go after a contract of your first job and take note -- nagaEnglish ko ha. hahaha -- anyway dai, i understand the feeling because i was in a situation before close to that.

just try dai no matter how small or big the job you can find here, it's okay as long as it'll motivates you to make the most out of it and you can use it as a good reference for your next step or next job in cebu or in manila.

let them see you've done your best to please them or follow them and in due time they'll realize that you're off to go somewhere else than this &?#@ city. oki dai..?

well i hope i said something sensible. hihihihi..

tulog nko dai kay kayod npod ugma. nytnyt..

Aw liz, dli pud ko mgcomment pareha kataas kai ate joy ha..kay murag 48years au ko mgtype kung same kataas sa iya...wahehehehe

Ate joy is right! AMAZING call kaau na. But no one knows, if it is exactly the call for you nothing can hinder it away. Just believe and strive hard. You got what it takes.. God Bless you always! :)

@ joe.young

yes dai, its really me owber hir! haha..

newei, im over the possibility of me working outside davao JUST NOW! and im open to work here na no matter how small or big the job is, atleast to have experience.. pro in due time pa! hehe.. and naisip ko lang, lisod pud biyaan ang davao noh!

tnx for the advice! you're making sense!

@ rgbc

lagi, no one knows jud.. everything is uncertain kaya enjoy life nlng ko ani! kamo pud, enjoy pud nnu inyo life pra happy ta tanan! believe and strive hard pud! soar high! hehe..

...but... do i really have what it takes?! tik lang!

tnx sa comment rap!

eMOte au mo dri OP q..ahehe..a2ng kasaButan liz.ahehe..huMana naq buhat...tnx!

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