Sunday, September 28, 2008 

jobless again

i'll quit my job! actually, i will be deployed in the workplace as real agent now since i just finished all the training as specified in my employment's contract but i'll not be going there anymore.. i will not continue my job and that would mean, I AM JOBLESS AGAIN! idle time, i'm back! LoL! i find it hard to decide on this since i like the workplace, i like my co-agents, i like the people there but honestly and frankly speaking i don't like the job itself and i can't like it and i will not like it ever, that's why i'll quit!

i'll start sending my resume again! wanna be beezee as a bee! whew =)

Saturday, September 27, 2008 

can i have my life's remote control?!

life is really a big bluff! fate is playing a dirty game with me.. is this what they call a challenge to my ignorance?!! my God, i swear i didn't expect this to happen and i am just so surprised to the highest level as in "oh my Lord!".. everything don't seem to sink in me and i don't know myself at all! is this for real or am i just dreaming? how come life is directing me to a totally different path as compared to the way i used to live?! life is really crazy and i'm going crazy too! LoL! i don't know if i made the right decision.. i know there are people who are happy for what's happening to me, but hey you all don't know what's inside me, the fear of uncertainties, i feel like belittling myself! or am i just eaten up by my own immaturity?! my God, i really don't want to do it, sabi ko nga napasubo lang! i hope i have a remote control and just press the rewind button to go back where i was before as if what's happening now does not and will not exist in my storyline!

**this post may appear so vague but that's it 'coz my life is vague itself! haha..

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  • davao, Philippines
  • i really don't know how to describe myself. i might think i am like this and that but i don't know if what i think i am is the same as how i appear to the people. i'm simply complicated as if my life is a mere bluff -- a really BIG BLUFF! i always carry my pessimism with me but i'm trying not to be consumed by my own negativity. see? i'm really complicated! LoL! i always love to think of myself understanding things logically. i like puzzling things out. i want to dissect every premises and formulate my own understanding and eventually a conclusion on a certain matter. that's how i make things complicated! haha.. i don't have lots of experiences, my life is boring, it only have shades of white and black all through the journey but i learn from my few experiences and from others' experiences as well. so even if i still don't have broad experiences as many people do, i want to believe that i'm still able to learn what life really is and now i'm still learning and forever be growing! thanks to the people around me! anyway, welcome to my blog! you may think this is just another nonsense blog -- yeah even i, myself, think that way! but that's ok, after all, this is my page!
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